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love u all...

<33 Claudia

goodbye my xanga...

its been great...

but i have moved on...

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<33 Claudia

blahhhhhhhh....

there's so much going on.. but i just seem to be sitting there...

i think i need a change in my appearance... any sugestions?? my hairs gotten long enough i could actually do something to it.... just dont kno quite what...

me and austins 4 month is this sunday... it seems like a long time but its gone so fast... i almost cant believe it... i love u austin dearest...

...////e.d.i.t////...

i realized that i havent been a good friend lately.. to so many people... i havent been there... seems like ive changed mentally...i think its only a temporary change... i used to be peppy and now i just sit there.. i guess im so tired all the time... but heres to my friends... i love u guys... that ur always there for me... rele i miss everyone... i miss that feeling u get when ur sitting there laughing with a bunch of ur friends... seems like i havent done that in awhile... i live for u guys... literally... i feel like i need the sun to start shining again... cause im tired of being under this cloud... i love u all sooo much..

...////e.n.d.//e.d.i.t////...

i will talk to all u lovelys later...

i love u all again..

muah!

<3<3<3<3<3 Claudia

15 days till Conference...
29 days till State...
33 days till school is out...
44 days till Austin leaves...
45 days till Erin gets to live at my house...
49 days till Memphis with Tsunami...
70 days till ill be lost in Germany...
87 days till i get to come back to my life in America...
89 days till Austin drives...
91 days till i turn 15...
93 days till Mall of America...
118 days till Austin finally comes back...
123 days till were back in school...

i cant help it.. it feels like my life is a countdown... i dont like where i am.. i dont want to get where im going... and i dont want to go where i was... so what does that mean. im not stuck cause time keeps moving but do i want it to?... im so scared... i just need someone to tell me everything will be ok and for me to believe them... and i dont know who ill believe... actually yes i do...

<33 Claudia

i love u..

hi hi hi...

what to write an entry about... maybe finally about swimming. i kno it bores people so i dont like to talk about it much but...

Conference and State are getting closer as the clock winds down... my state cut is yet to be made... i want it... im trying... i rele am... even if people dont believe me, i am... i guess all i can say is sorry to the team... sometimes i just feel like im doing everything wrong. i try to do it right but it just happens wrong... id just like u guys to kno that im sorry... im trying to do stuff right...

life is a struggle now-a-days... nothings rele truely wrong.. its just hard.. you know?i dont think ive ever pushed myself this far in the stress department... but summers almost here... but sometime i catch myself thinking that nothing will change... that with summer my life will be just as hard to deal with...

thank u to all my friends who are there for me.. i love u guys so much... you guys are what keeps me going sometimes...

bye.

<33 Claudia